what it is

I am jumbled by feelings, by hints of feelings...things that I'm unsure of. There are people I want to talk to...they are not receptive. Something is wrong. There is a strong disconnect in my relationships. I feel and I think and the people don't understand. These people in my life aren't there with me. I wish they were. There is always one thing I am hiding...from certain people. There is a potential hope I can't profess. I think and I feel...I wish they could see each of these. From my point of view. I don't want to hurt anybody. I hate blogs. I want to talk about it. To Oliver, to Jillian. I don't understand and I'm sorry. There is a strong disconnect and I try to be considerate. I still don't understand. Let's talk about it. I'm sorry. Let's talk. I want the combination of our voices to create a balance. How about being on the same wavelength?