it may be a tad late

But I have decided to make 2 new years' resolutions: no romantic entanglements and the unencumbered growth of my bangs. yippee.

pull me in

I feel compelled to do this again. I'm not quite sure why. I am spinning off into another reality. Once again I have become a victim to the detriment of my world and everything that it entails. I don't need someone to reaffirm my grasp, give me my assurance back, but I want someone. Most of the people in my life have no idea how to help; they don't even understand that I do need help, that I could need it. It is not fathomable. Or am I wrong? Please pull me back in.

brainstorm

My mind is freaking out. Since a new year has begun, and we are at the throes of a new beginning, of infinite possibilities and promise, I have been unexpectedly thrust towards a feeling of evaluation. I have been thrust towards a need to evaluate myself and my life. There are many things that I do that give people different perceptions of who I am. It seems that I am constantly unsure of what I am doing but only afterwards. At the time of making a decision I feel completely certain that it is the right choice. Once the choice has been made, however, I sense regret. What am I doing? What is this? Is it right? Is it not? ...